Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Objet du desire

Source: google.com via Kelly on Pinterest

WE will be buying this soooooon and that day will be a dream come true day!

PS: The title is in French and it stands for Object of Desire and no I don't speak any French. But since I am being all snobbish and a show off I thought as well use the language that best represents both the attitudes...in a non-offensive/non-judgemental way of course. :p

Friday, October 26, 2012

My Soulmate

Recently I received a compliment..indirectly actually. Someone wrote somewhere that I am that person's soulmate. It blew my mind and heart to bits...blew up in a good way i.e.. You know when you are overcome and overwhelmed with happiness and love and you feel your heart is going to swell up and burst because you cannot contain whatever you are feeling...that kind of good.

But as if being happy was not enough and since somewhere in me resides a curious soul...it got me thinking about this term soulmate and I googled it. As always Prof. Wikipedia popped up with a prompt "awesome" reply. I loved the definition of soulmate and it wasn't too far from what I thought it meant although I have no idea if the person who called me also had a similar definition in mind while calling me a soulmate. But more than that I was fascinated by this ancient Greek story linked to soul mates, and this is what it says..

 In his dialogue The Symposium, Plato has Aristophanes present a story about soul mates. Aristophanes states that humans originally had four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.[2]

Cool isn't it?

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


It's pretty late here. I should be sleeping but cannot. Reasons are many.

I am sleepless because I have to finish up some work and the deadline is fast approaching. The work has been difficult, mainly due to my lack of focus and then because there is a lot of work and no one to help.

I am sleepless because I like to stay awake listening to the night sounds. And then I get all nostalgic and sad. It is sometimes  the distant roar of a passing motorbike, or the honk of a long distance bus, or back home it would be the sound of a passing train (ah! my favorite!) or a stray dog barking, or the sound of a radio from somewhere far and you can almost hear an old classic.

I am sleepless because I keep thinking of things, of places, of people, of possibilities, of impossibilities.Utterly foolish of me isn't it? To stay awake and think of  impossibilities.

I am sleepless because I don't want to miss you.

I suppose I am a sleepless romantic. No...actually I don't know. But ages since I made a list and now finally there is one!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


I wonder- sometimes, often,
Why our paths crossed?
In my other wise solitary but crowded world.

Connecting without agenda,
In my disconnected, detached world,
Your presence so consuming,
In my otherwise empty, void world.

Overpowering kindness,
Conquers my unkind, uncaring world,
All these niceness, feels absurd,
In my other wise indifferent, spiteful world.

Love, affection, friendship
Alters my cynical world,
You begin to mean so much,
In my other wise meaningless, muddled world.

Slipping into my dreams,
Arousing my dreary, sleepy world,
You create magic,
In my other wise ordinary, disenchanted world

Is this all real?
Or is this all make-belief?
Yet I find clarity,
In my other wise ambiguous world.

I wonder-sometimes, often
Why our paths crossed?
In my other wise solitary but crowded world.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Dragged Down

Lovely weather today. All cloudy and downcast. A perfect day to hang around, do nothing, and day dream as Norah Jones sings "come away with me".
But mother insists that I clean the fridge and sweep the floor among other chores. Ha!--so much for  lovely weather, lovely music and day dreaming when I have people dragging me down to mundane realities.

Friday, October 12, 2012


I am busy working on school related stuff. I have been staring at a computer screen for too long. I take a break only to read some school related stuff. My eyes hurt from continuous use and I take a break for real and search up poems by Pablo Neruda and this is what I find.

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
 I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” - Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

Now my heart aches a little bit but I must get back to school related stuff. Hmmm...life!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Foolishly Silly Utterly Simplistic

All it takes is one email, one message, orrrrrrr in my case.......a missed call to make me feel happy. Is this being foolishly silly or  being utterly simplistic? Hmmm..I dont know. And why bother when in the end all that matters is how you feel?!

Yea..I know...wasn't that some profound thinking coming out of me?!

PS: My friend got the job and she is moving to where I live!! Yoohooo!

Sunday, October 07, 2012

Broke and Happy

My friend is in town visiting. We drove around, went hunting for a house (for her when she eventually moves here in a month or two), chatted chatted chatted, ate ice cream for dinner, chatted more, went "designer shopping" and bought this for a friend and now I am broke. But it feels great!I feel happy.

Now the only question is if what I bought is liked by whom I bought it for!

Friday, October 05, 2012


I am HOT!........mmm  as in hot weather and hence feeling hot. I know--I always do this. Like misleading people is so much fun---- NOT!

It may be fall-approaching-winter weather and therefore all pleasant and cool and lovely for some folks out there, but where I live it is fall- but-let-hot- sweaty-weather prevail kind of a situation. Hot weather irritates me and then nothing seems to work, and I develop a minor case of persecution complex where everyone hates me and I feel like a giant sack of useless ideas.
Well...not really. I am overreacting a bit which is perhaps another reaction to lousy weather.
And then to make matters worse (yep..in my world things have a way of not just going downhill but plunging downhill) I hear my dear friends are off on a road trip (official purposes but still a road trip is a road trip) while I am royally stuck here immobile!

 Just so that I can relive my lovely road tripping days and because self-torture is soo much fun here are some pictures I am ogling at as I develop an overwhelming urge to burst into tears.

Thursday, October 04, 2012

Disturbed But Hopeful

I am shaken up, disturbed, deeply saddened, repulsed, and agitated. If you wonder there is something going on in my personal life to bring up such emotions then no. It is all reaction to a documentary I watched yesterday on PBS despite having missed the first half. But watching it in full, half, quarter, or just the trailer is more than enough to make you feel all of the above if you allow yourself to feel all of the above.Otherwise it can be just another documentary.
It sincerely made me want to do something. It made me think of her for some reason although I am sure she is loved and cared for wherever she is and many others I have known and met over time. I wish, instead of simply "feeling bad", I do something about it. So, what can I do and what should  I do? I could make a donation and convince myself that I have done my part but that I don't want to. It seems so emotionless.
I guess I will figure something out or opportunities have a strange way of making an appearance and I will grab it when it does. Meanwhile I remain disturbed but hopeful.

And here is a profound thought that may help us all to begin-

“Sometimes the problem seems so big that change in one life does not seem enough…but it is”- America Ferrera in Half the Sky.