Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year

It is the New Year! and along with happiness, prosperity and peace for me and everyone, I also wish for this and this for myself.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Boring Yet..

Absolutely no inspiration to write anything uplifting. Perhaps because everything seems dull and mundane. I got back from my field work in July this year and ever since I have been waiting to get back and the wait has taken its toll! Almost 5 months are over, although it feels like 5 years and I feel drained from all the restlessness and longing and desperation.When nothing seems to be going your way a certain indifference sets in, you stop thinking about stuff and try and move with the flow, albeit not easy.

Work wise too nothing amazing has been accomplished yet. There is a couple of documents to be finished and some meetings with Professors a.k.a pending work and then just pack and wait. I am seriously contemplating staying back a bit longer in India this time. Will wait and see what happens.

Pretty boring post on an almost boring life. But all hope is not lost. There is a tentative movie plan (Life of Pie) for next  weekend and a few friends over at the house for a small potluck party. Maybe surrounding myself with happy people is just what is recommended.

On a side note, two things that caught my attention recently..

1. A documentary film called "The World Before Her"
2. A song called Colorblind by the Counting Crows

Do check them out.

Thursday, December 06, 2012

Today Morning

On my way to school today morning. All downcast and rainy and cool! Just the way I like the weather to be. The only thing missing-good company!

Monday, December 03, 2012

Strange Strange Strange!

Someone said..
 "It is a strange feeling to miss someone who may or may not miss you and no amount of rational thinking or common sense helps you to feel ok".

It is the weekend and I did nothing constructive. Instead I hung out with a friend and listened to rap music (underground rap is definitely interesting) and back home I listened to unchained melody by Righteous Brothers endless times. I know--pretty strange, my taste in music!

It gets boring and then I feel miserable and then I watch comedy or read Tina Fey to escape from it all. Is it strange? I guess not.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Before Sunrise,Before Sunset and Before Midnight

I am re-watching two movies over the long weekend. "Before Sunrise" and "Before Sunset".
I have watched them before and really liked them. I read somewhere that they have completed filming the third part titled  "Before Midnight". It got me so excited that I decided to revisit the previous parts to refresh my memory. It is about two strangers meeting unexpectedly and just clicking. It is about forming a connection, about soul mates (I think so), about restrained love, or as the article said " maddeningly hesitant lovers". Hmmm...sounds familiar? It does to me. Oh! and this lovely song (A Waltz For a Night) sung by Julie Delpy herself-redefines sweetness, does it not?

Here listen to the song, read the lyrics and decide for yourself (and check out her cool apartment while you are at it!)

Friday, November 16, 2012

Today's Threes

Three things today that made me incredibly happy, excited and restless (in a good way) and three resolutions I took that may or may not be broken, nevertheless they were taken.

1. A dear, dear, dear, sweet, friend, nice, soul, cool, mate, partner in all future crimes (I wish) submitted  two research articles for publication for the first time!! and that made me incredibly happy.

2. This image-this route (Apparently the Srinagar-Leh route). Imagining a road-trip here (on an Enfield) is too darn scary but got me too darn excited as well!

Source: via Andrea on Pinterest

3. This new video on Incredible India got me restless when I really should not be getting restless. Only because plenty work needs to be done and I don't have any money. Where is that rich, magnanimous far relative when you need one?!? Ha! Life and its tortures- I tell you!

As for the resolutions...

1. Reduce foolish talk
2. Reduce talking in general
3. Quit being restless

(PS: The resolutions can possibly translate to quitting my blog. Hmmm..*pondering*)

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Voices of The Mountain...Colors of The Wind

I share this song not because I like Disney classics but because I love this song. I mean, check out the lyrics. Such perfect, poetic, sensible words. Agree? or Disagree?

It's long past my bed time and here I am awake, alternating between writing, listening to music, nibbling on short bread nibbles, sending "missed calls" and wondering, waiting and writing. Ha! the story of my life in a nutshell really.

Instead I wish I could...

".. run the hidden pine trails of the forest
....taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth
....roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth"

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

Train Journeys

In my personal opinion, there is an exceptional charm and romanticism associated with train travel. Do you agree? I have not been traveling much lately to experience all the charm and romanticism it entails, unfortunately. But, all hope is not lost, for there is a lot of nostalgia and joy reminiscing about past train journeys and lot of excitement dreaming up future train journeys  to exotic destinations, making plans and wondering if I will be alone or with someone?
I am fine with traveling alone actually. That's the way it has been for the most part. I am usually the one quietly sitting in the corner looking out the window and day dreaming. This is not because I am the quiet, day-dreamy kind. Its my way of ensuring a safe, happy journey with less likelihood of inviting strange, weirdos to mess up my trip. That and there is something cool about being all introspective as life literally passes in front of you.
Just yesterday I told someone about my future train-travel plans and he wanted to know where, how, when and with whom. And since lately I have been pinning up my dreams on Pinterest (it is actually quite therapeutic and I have two boards now-"travel" and "design") and since I am sharing my love for train journeys today, here is one that I plan for in future.

This is the Trans-Mongolian railway- Starting at China-through Mongolia to Russia!Just the thought of going is giving me goosebumps!

And here is a map I found that clearly shows the entire route with more interesting details here.


Now be good you all and wish me ( and my soul-mate?) Bon Voyage! :)

Sunday, November 04, 2012


The whole idea of backpacking across interesting, remote places appeal to me a lot. I wish to do it. I will..someday. Something like this movie, except for the unexpected, scary twist. Yea..I like adventure but not a fan of unexpected, scary twists. And I can only imagine the fun if I am traveling with a like-minded someone...what say soul-mate? :)

The movie is about a couple backpacking across somewhere in Eastern Europe and then something goes wrong. I wish to see the movie. It looks intriguing and I hope that the minor incident that "changes everything" is nothing too terrible.

Thursday, November 01, 2012

My Free Will and I

My impatience, my disconcertion
Whom or what to blame?
Perhaps it’s the closeness I feel
Physically, emotionally, mentally
Drawn into you, consequences unknown
Like moths to fire, a fish to its bait.
Lacking reason, disregarding rules
My free will and I
It may sustain me or it may be my end!

Alternating happiness, unhappiness
Whom or what to blame?
 Perhaps it’s my earnest yearnings
Needing you unabashedly
Settling into your heart
Like a bee to a flower, a bird to its nest
Lacking ego, refusing conformity
My free will and I
It may sustain me or it may be my end!
Time flies, uncertainty hurts
Whom or what to blame?
Perhaps it’s my blinding love
Surging towards you recklessly
Drowning into the depths of desire
Like an endless tunnel, an abyss
Lacking caution, dismissing “good sense”
My free will and I
It may sustain me or it may be my end!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Objet du desire

Source: via Kelly on Pinterest

WE will be buying this soooooon and that day will be a dream come true day!

PS: The title is in French and it stands for Object of Desire and no I don't speak any French. But since I am being all snobbish and a show off I thought as well use the language that best represents both the a non-offensive/non-judgemental way of course. :p

Friday, October 26, 2012

My Soulmate

Recently I received a compliment..indirectly actually. Someone wrote somewhere that I am that person's soulmate. It blew my mind and heart to bits...blew up in a good way i.e.. You know when you are overcome and overwhelmed with happiness and love and you feel your heart is going to swell up and burst because you cannot contain whatever you are feeling...that kind of good.

But as if being happy was not enough and since somewhere in me resides a curious got me thinking about this term soulmate and I googled it. As always Prof. Wikipedia popped up with a prompt "awesome" reply. I loved the definition of soulmate and it wasn't too far from what I thought it meant although I have no idea if the person who called me also had a similar definition in mind while calling me a soulmate. But more than that I was fascinated by this ancient Greek story linked to soul mates, and this is what it says..

 In his dialogue The Symposium, Plato has Aristophanes present a story about soul mates. Aristophanes states that humans originally had four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.[2]

Cool isn't it?

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


It's pretty late here. I should be sleeping but cannot. Reasons are many.

I am sleepless because I have to finish up some work and the deadline is fast approaching. The work has been difficult, mainly due to my lack of focus and then because there is a lot of work and no one to help.

I am sleepless because I like to stay awake listening to the night sounds. And then I get all nostalgic and sad. It is sometimes  the distant roar of a passing motorbike, or the honk of a long distance bus, or back home it would be the sound of a passing train (ah! my favorite!) or a stray dog barking, or the sound of a radio from somewhere far and you can almost hear an old classic.

I am sleepless because I keep thinking of things, of places, of people, of possibilities, of impossibilities.Utterly foolish of me isn't it? To stay awake and think of  impossibilities.

I am sleepless because I don't want to miss you.

I suppose I am a sleepless romantic. No...actually I don't know. But ages since I made a list and now finally there is one!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


I wonder- sometimes, often,
Why our paths crossed?
In my other wise solitary but crowded world.

Connecting without agenda,
In my disconnected, detached world,
Your presence so consuming,
In my otherwise empty, void world.

Overpowering kindness,
Conquers my unkind, uncaring world,
All these niceness, feels absurd,
In my other wise indifferent, spiteful world.

Love, affection, friendship
Alters my cynical world,
You begin to mean so much,
In my other wise meaningless, muddled world.

Slipping into my dreams,
Arousing my dreary, sleepy world,
You create magic,
In my other wise ordinary, disenchanted world

Is this all real?
Or is this all make-belief?
Yet I find clarity,
In my other wise ambiguous world.

I wonder-sometimes, often
Why our paths crossed?
In my other wise solitary but crowded world.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Dragged Down

Lovely weather today. All cloudy and downcast. A perfect day to hang around, do nothing, and day dream as Norah Jones sings "come away with me".
But mother insists that I clean the fridge and sweep the floor among other chores. Ha!--so much for  lovely weather, lovely music and day dreaming when I have people dragging me down to mundane realities.

Friday, October 12, 2012


I am busy working on school related stuff. I have been staring at a computer screen for too long. I take a break only to read some school related stuff. My eyes hurt from continuous use and I take a break for real and search up poems by Pablo Neruda and this is what I find.

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
 I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” - Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

Now my heart aches a little bit but I must get back to school related stuff.!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Foolishly Silly Utterly Simplistic

All it takes is one email, one message, orrrrrrr in my case.......a missed call to make me feel happy. Is this being foolishly silly or  being utterly simplistic? Hmmm..I dont know. And why bother when in the end all that matters is how you feel?!

Yea..I know...wasn't that some profound thinking coming out of me?!

PS: My friend got the job and she is moving to where I live!! Yoohooo!

Sunday, October 07, 2012

Broke and Happy

My friend is in town visiting. We drove around, went hunting for a house (for her when she eventually moves here in a month or two), chatted chatted chatted, ate ice cream for dinner, chatted more, went "designer shopping" and bought this for a friend and now I am broke. But it feels great!I feel happy.

Now the only question is if what I bought is liked by whom I bought it for!

Friday, October 05, 2012


I am HOT!........mmm  as in hot weather and hence feeling hot. I know--I always do this. Like misleading people is so much fun---- NOT!

It may be fall-approaching-winter weather and therefore all pleasant and cool and lovely for some folks out there, but where I live it is fall- but-let-hot- sweaty-weather prevail kind of a situation. Hot weather irritates me and then nothing seems to work, and I develop a minor case of persecution complex where everyone hates me and I feel like a giant sack of useless ideas.
Well...not really. I am overreacting a bit which is perhaps another reaction to lousy weather.
And then to make matters worse ( my world things have a way of not just going downhill but plunging downhill) I hear my dear friends are off on a road trip (official purposes but still a road trip is a road trip) while I am royally stuck here immobile!

 Just so that I can relive my lovely road tripping days and because self-torture is soo much fun here are some pictures I am ogling at as I develop an overwhelming urge to burst into tears.

Thursday, October 04, 2012

Disturbed But Hopeful

I am shaken up, disturbed, deeply saddened, repulsed, and agitated. If you wonder there is something going on in my personal life to bring up such emotions then no. It is all reaction to a documentary I watched yesterday on PBS despite having missed the first half. But watching it in full, half, quarter, or just the trailer is more than enough to make you feel all of the above if you allow yourself to feel all of the above.Otherwise it can be just another documentary.
It sincerely made me want to do something. It made me think of her for some reason although I am sure she is loved and cared for wherever she is and many others I have known and met over time. I wish, instead of simply "feeling bad", I do something about it. So, what can I do and what should  I do? I could make a donation and convince myself that I have done my part but that I don't want to. It seems so emotionless.
I guess I will figure something out or opportunities have a strange way of making an appearance and I will grab it when it does. Meanwhile I remain disturbed but hopeful.

And here is a profound thought that may help us all to begin-

“Sometimes the problem seems so big that change in one life does not seem enough…but it is”- America Ferrera in Half the Sky.