Sunday, December 17, 2006

Wish For

Wish for respite
Many uncertainties in sight

Wish for you
Wanderlust to renew

Wish for travel
Exhilaration and excitement unravel

Wish for cool winds
Embrace and whisper sweet nothings

Wish for shadows and shades
Play hide & seek and other es-capades

Wish for sites breathtaking
Wild nature awe-inspiring

Wish for mountainous splendor
Feel overwhelmed and simply surrender

Wish for forest and rain
It is romance I entertain

Wish for tranquility away from “lifez” disharmony
Amazed at nature’s paradox- harmony in cacophony

Wish for life and love
Let heart rule and time, please allow

Wishes all declared
Nothing ventured nothing gained.
(Pic:A favorite pic of a friend)

Monday, November 20, 2006

The Sahyadris

Was killing time. Googled Western Ghats hoping to check out some awesome images or read up some interesting stuff and stumbled upon these treasures. A book of images and a documentary film on the Sahyadris.

The Movie:

Doesn’t the title rock?!?
Can check out the trailer here: (should work)

The Book

This book of images can be purchased from ATREE. An AWESOME organization based in Bangalore that I have known since my internship days . I have always wanted to work there. Maybe someday.


At The Gorgas Science Foundation (USA). It costs $50.

The Artist/Author:

"Sandesh Kadur, though based in Brownsville, Texas, makes his home in forests across the globe. Images, Sandesh feels, have the power to move people in a way nothing else can. And it is this power he hopes to harness through his work and inspire his audience to protect and appreciate what remains of our wilderness. True to his name, he brings the message of the richness and beauty of nature far beyond its boundaries ."
The book's co-author is Prof Kamal Bawa.

I want the book and the movie (saw the trailer… I have goose bumps!). It’s past midnight, but I have lost all sleep.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Plane On Sale!Plane On Sale!

Anybody wants to buy a plane? A cute little cessna for a neat little price.

With thanksgiving almost here and Christmas around the corner, everyones mail box is getting flooded with shopping catalogues from different stores. Mostly from places like Wall Mart, Macy's, Sears, Old Navy etc. They normally carry holiday specials and items on sale.Being a barely surviving graduate student anything above $25 is luxury item for me and sometimes these catalogues can be very exciting when I find something that I wanted on a 75% sale price. So,that's when yesterday in my mail box I found a catalogue from Sam's club, a whole sale outlet of Wall Mart. Inside their cover page carried an ad of a cessna business jet on sale for 2.7 million dollars!! It was quite a surprise initially but later I couldn't help but wonder if this was somebody's idea of a joke. I mean a 2.7 million dollar plane on a shopping catalogue mailed to a middle class neighbourhood!!
Anyways..guess what? I just checked online and found out it's already been SOLD!!Howzat?

Happy Thanksgiving YaAll!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Ordinariness To Extraordinariness

Enroute to destination on a nice stormy day

Sometimes it happens that you become one, in some rare moment. Watch the ocean, the tremendous wildness of it--and suddenly you forget your split, your schizophrenia; you relax. listening to beautiful music, you fall together. Whenever, in whatsoever situation, you become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss, surrounds you, arises in you. You feel fulfilled. There is no need to wait for these moments--these moments can become your natural life. These extraordinary moments can become ordinary moments - that is the whole effort of Zen. You can live an extraordinary life in a very ordinary life: cleaning the floor , cooking, studying, doing your assignments, you can be tremendously at ease with yourself--because the whole question is of you doing your action totally, enjoying, delighting in it...................yep!

That was a quick fix to schizophrenia now I need a quick fix to paranoia.Not just me but majority of the world seems to be paranoid( impending nuclear holocaust, the next ice-age, conspiracy theories and what not) or maybe it's just me being schizophrenic.
Life is not a tragedy, it is a comedy. To be alive means to have a sense of humor- Osho

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Nothing Much Except That

Democrats won big time and have taken control of the House of Reps as well as the Senate(well almost).

My advisor is thrilled to bits over it and we are having a barbeque party tomorrow (Thursday) to celebrate. Actually the party was decided last Friday for no reason. Now, there seems to be a good reason.

Rumsfeld resigned “after a series of thoughtful conversation” with the president .It was decided the country’s defense needs “new leadership”.

I cut my hair short. The length-just below my ears. Nobody cared except for mom. She was furious.

I have also gone back to biting my nails big time. (I have heard it’s a bad habit)

My professor/advisor is in love with Keanu Reeves. I can bet on it.

One of my good friends had a baby boy and he wants me to go shopping with him for baby stuff.

I made him translate each word of the “Naina” song form Omkara.

Kal Pen( and no he ain’t related to Sean Penn) from Harold and Kumar go to Whitecastle fame was in campus for a chat session and it was followed by the screening of the same movie. I missed both.

He is playing Gogol Ganguli in the new movie by Mira Nair “Namesake”(Jhumpa Lahri’s).

I am supposed to be cooking some Indian dish for friday’s get together. Two Indian students are graduating and leaving. I haven’t the faintest idea who they are but I am cooking.

I am trying to give up chai . I have chai addiction . No professional help just the age-old method of self-control.

There is a huge movie poster on the wall in my room. It shows two huge chimneys with the smoke coming out forming a hurricane like image and it says “By far the most terrifying film you will ever see”- aninconvenienttruth :A Global Warning.

For an even more terrifying experience read Rauf's recent posts.(And I am not being funny)

I had a chat with my pal J yesterday and he has decided to stand for elections (presidential race). If I voted for him he would make me the minister for environment. I agreed. I don’t know which country he had in mind.

“High up where the mountains meet the sky, Starbucks journeys to find the best coffee beans in the world”. These words printed on the Starbucks coffee paper cup from which I just had some coffee. I am not addicted to coffee so it’s ok.

Guess it takes time to get used to the fact that your dad is not around anymore.

GAP is so bloody expensive.

Britney Spears has filed for divorce. The rest of the world moves on with its business.

I got a forwarded message from a dear friend of mine. It said make a wish and then if you forward the mail to five people your wish will be realized some day and if you forward it to 10 people your wish will be realized before your next birthday. It also had a note specifying that the wish be a realistic one. What do you think I did? *sitting here with a loser cap*.

I have to go home now.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Heart Mind Heart Mind Heart Mind He...Mi..

My heart says
I love your heart
Not so much your mind
Your mind is too conditioned, programmed, diluted-
and perhaps even corrupt
Unlike your heart, your mind-
knows no freedom, only boundaries.
Perhaps your mind is tricking me, but why?
My heart says
I love your heart
Not so much your mind.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

What Do I Say?

"......I had a chat with my parents.They didnt mention anything..but I could feel their apprehension . Now one thing is sure I am going to leave this country in the coming years as I dont want to be a part of this culture...Hopless yaar....I feel it's better to be in Australia chasing kangaroos or in Ireland brewing Whiskey!So....what say u?"

This is a mail from a friend of mine ( I think his " I dont want to be a part of this culture" was a!). Anyway, he is going through a rough patch right now. Issues ranging from settling for an arranged marriage to his course work and career...etc etc.

So what do I say ? If I say the cliched -"this is just a phase yaar" ( I sound uninterested). If I say- "stay back in India" (I sound insensitive). If I say -"leave the country (and disown the culture)" (I sound like a traitor).

So, again......what do I say?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

A Reminder?

Mother Earth rocked me yesterday-but I was scared.

Friday, October 13, 2006


Havent seen this movie yet.Heard it's based on William Shakespear's Othello. Also heard the language isnt exactly shakespearean...plenty of crap talk in Hindi. And I know for sure the movie has a couple of lovely songs. Looking forward to seeing the movie for all the above reasons-once the mid term's out of the way.

One of my favourite songs from the movie and it goes......

O Saathire
O saathi re din dube na -
aa chal din ko roke
dhup ke peeche daude
chaav chhue na...o saathi re....
......... and the rest of the lines :)

(It's Friday the 13th....Spooky!!!)

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Ways Of The "Empire"

"So here we are the people of the world,confronted with an Empire armed with a mandate from heaven(and , as added insurance, the most formidable arsenal of Weapons of Mass Destruction in history). Here we are, confronted with an Empire that has conferred upon itself the right to go to war at will, and the right to deliver people from corrupting ideologies, from religious fundamentalists, dictators,sexism and poverty by the age-old, tried-and tested practice of extermination.Empire is on the move , and Democracy is its sly new war cry.Democracy home-delivered to your doorstep by daisy-cutters.Death is a small price for people to pay for the privelege of sampling this new product:Instant-Mix Imperial Democracy (bring to a boil,add oil,then bomb)".
(Src: A.Roy's -An Ordinary Person's Guide To An Empire)

October 9 ,2006 -BBC Report:

In his first public statement, the US president said the North Korean claim "constitutes a threat to international peace and security." He said he had telephoned Chinese, Japanese, Russian and South Korean leaders, who had all reaffirmed their commitment to a nuclear-free Korean peninsula.
"Once again, North Korea has defied the will of the international community, and the international community will respond," he said.

Hmmm...I wonder how the "Empire" plans to respond.

As if NK is the only country in this planet that owns and tested nucelar weapons.Dont they have rights to protect their own asses.. just like everyone else? And this way their actions are justified too.
But yes, it's a sad justification.. for everyone of us. We are no more bound by the common thread of humanity.We have disintegrated to mere citizens , belonging to nations with protected boundaries ..not by choice, but by fate. Nobody lives, everybody survives -strategising,bullying and compromising to protect theselves.

Friday, September 29, 2006

An Update

Was completely jet lagged last week which doesn’t mean I slept it out. Stayed awake yet was as useful as a rag doll.

A whole different story this week. Been working on my backlog of assignments and tackled a midterm test-part I for one of the classes. Can proudly claim that I am done with all my pending assignments for one class. A couple of friends invited me for dinner yesterday night. I declined as I was on a studying spree. Now that can pass off as a joke. Anyway, worked on the research proposal for the other class and stayed back at the Uni till 9pm. This is how the story goes.

Took me and my belongings to the Artic (read library). Spent a straight three hours and left when I started freezing. Got plenty of literature on the area but still couldn’t conceptualize my proposal. Shifted me and my belongings to my warm office with the idea of breaking my head some more over it. Due to some bizarre twist of fate I stumbled upon you tube and watched re-runs of Seinfeld and FRIENDS bloopers till 9pm and left for home.So much for breaking my head!

Today did a lot of work-work, sat through a class and did some more work on the proposal. Made some breakthrough and came up with an outline of sorts. Barged into Prof’s office and had a discussion and now I have the improved version of a research proposal outline. I never miss a chance to talk with this Prof of mine. Absolutely brilliant he is; an encyclopedia when it comes to Envtl econ and policy (discuss with him- history, theory, concepts or issues on the wouldn’t be disappointed). Sitting through his class is an awesome experience and it helps to have a dictionary in hand. I think he invented the words you find in Oxford or Websters!

Right now typing up this post and listening to Metallica’s nothing else matters. Yea right!
Got to get back to work.

Friday, September 22, 2006


Saw a Malayalam movie yesterday. After a long time, I actually sat through a whole Malayalam movie and I cried like there was no tomorrow. I was watching it alone otherwise it would have been pretty embarrassing.
The movie is Perumazhakalam. Roughly translated- Season/Time of Torrential Rains.
For me the name itself was captivating and the movie didn’t disappoint either- with it’s constant backdrop of pouring rain in almost ever scene accompanied by lovely hindustani music as background score. Rains in Kerala has a mesmerizing quality to it. I guess it’s the combination of the sounds of the rain , the wet greenery and water soaked earth. A poet might express it better..I give up!
The movie had a novel theme and it was quite good , although it can trun you into a weaping heap, especially if you have very active tear buds like me. But go ahead and watch it for rainsake.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

A Dream Yet To Realize.

Interposed between the sea and the plains of Bengal ,lies an immense archipelago of islands, an archipelago, stretching for almost three hundred kilometers, from the Hooghly river in West Bengal to the shores of the Meghna in Bangladesh.
The islands are the trailing threads of India’s fabric, the ragged fringe of her sari, the achol that follows her, half-wetted by the sea. The tides reach as far as three hundred kilometers inland and everyday thousands of acres of forest disappear underwater only to re-emerge hours later. The currents are so powerful as to reshape the islands almost daily-somedays the water tears away entire promontories and peninsulas; at other times it throws up new shelves and sandbanks where there were none.

When the tides create new land, overnight mangroves begin to gestate, and if the conditions are right they can spread so fast as to cover a new island within a few short years. A mangrove forest is a universe unto itself, utterly unlike other woodlands or jungles. Mangrove leaves are tough and leathery, the branches gnarled and the foliage often impassably dense. Visibility is short and the air still and fetid.

There is no prettiness here to invite the stranger in: yet, to the world this archipelago is known as “the Sundarban”, which means, “the beautiful forest” (sunder=beautiful, ban= forest). There are some who believe the word to be derived from the name of a common species of mangrove-the sundari tree, Heriteria minor. But the world’s origin is no easier to account for than its present prevalence, for in the record books of the Mughal emperors this region is named not in reference to a tree but to a tide –bhati. And to the inhabitatnts of the islands this land is known as bhatir desh-the tide country-except that bhati is not just the “tide” but one tide in particular, the ebb-tide, the bhata .

(Post Src: The Hungry Tide by Amitav Ghosh)

So many places to travel, to explore, to see. Sundarbans is one in the list. Always wanted to go there and after reading this, even more inspired. It seems like a magical, mystical place.

PS: (I was surprised when I got only a few good images of Sundarbans from the net.)Nobody goes there or what??


Monday, September 18, 2006


August 31st 2006: My dad passed away after a brief illness. I wasn’t there.

September 2nd: I left for India.

September 5th: I saw, touched and talked to my dad for the last time. He couldn’t see, feel or hear me…I guess.

September 10th: All the ceremonies got over .I think dad got a great farewell.

September 12th: I got news that a “wonderful crazy someone” is getting married. That’s one good news.

September 13th: My pony tailed, rock music enthusiast friend told me- “I am there for you”. Not to be taken seriously ofcourse. But no matter what…it touched my heart.

September 16th: In the plane. It was a night flight and we were flying at 33,000 ft altitude. Inside, the lights were off and everyone was quiet or sleeping .After a few hours of sleep I looked out of the window. Saw the night sky dotted with stars and a particularly bright one and I swear I saw a shooting star( looked more like a falling star). So beautiful and so serene it was.

September 17th: Back, feeling bad about leaving mom alone and dreading school.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Can't Wait..

A movie I look forward to watching:

Mira Nair's....
About the movie:

The Namesake Release: March 9, 2007 Directed by: Mira Nair Written by: Sooni Taraporevala Based on the novel by: Jhumpa Lahiri Produced by: Lydia Dean Pilcher, Mira Nair Executive Produced by: Yasushi Kotani, Taizo Son, Ronnie Screwvala Cast: Kal Penn, Tabu, Irrfan Khan, Jacinda Barrett, Zuleikha Robinson, Brooke Smith, Sahira Nair.

The story is based on:

THE NAMESAKE is the story of the Ganguli family whose move from Calcutta to New York evokes a lifelong balancing act to meld to a new world without forgetting the old. Though parents Ashoke and Ashima (Irrfan Khan, Tabu) long for the family and culture that enveloped them in India, they take great pride in the opportunities their sacrifices have afforded their children. Paradoxically, their son Gogol (Kal Penn) is torn between finding his own unique identity without losing his heritage. Even Gogol's name represents the family's journey into the unknown.

Check out the trailer here.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Something(s)- Today.

Somethings I did so far:

Daydreamed, worked, listened to music, daydreamed....

Something I wished for :

= A transient, sometimes violent storm of thunder and lightning, often accompanied by rain.

Something I read :

Pat Buchanan's interview in Time.
Interviewer: I confess I always think Pat Buchanan seems to take things so seriously.what do you do for a laugh?
PB: I read the newspaper. There's so much silliness and nonsense going on.

Something I got:

My friend M gave me some sweetmeats his mom sent him from Kerala.It's called "churuttu".

Something that I re-checked and liked even more:

Rauf's new post

Something interesting somebody said:

Wildpic's reply to my comment in my blog.

Something nice that happened :

Met S after a reeeeaaaly looong time.
He is graduating this dec and his sis,B-I-L and parents are all coming down for his graduation. WOW!

Something funny I received:

My friend M sent me this mail.
Go to google and type FAILURE and check out what's first in the listing.(it's funny, unless google decides to fix it)lol!

Something I prayed for:

A black BMW and world peace.
Just kidding about peace. Ok will shut up.

Something I craved for :
ME -I hold u responsible

Something lovely I listened to:

Kannukku Mai Azhaku from Pudiya Mugam.

Something a wonderful, crazy someone asked me :

Are you plain stupid or is this a special day?

Something I look forward to:

The welcome back get together at the department in a short while from now.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

"Austere And Blazing Poetry Of The Real"

A Flash Back...

It was a working trip but since my Prof is quite laid back and the "bindas" kind , it was all play no work the day we got there. Drove up to Haleakala Mountain(10,324 feet elevation. The plane that brought us in to the island was only flying at 12,000ft. lol!). To say the terrain at the summit is interesting is quite an understatement. For a moment you forget you are on planet earth and may want to prepare yourself to a real life experience of “close encounters of the third kind”. Devoid of vegetation ( except for a few,rare, closer to extinction species)with different shades of dirt(orange-blue-brown-No Kidding!) and an observatory that looks straight out of a starwars set design (white domed octagonal structures) one can easily pretend to be a space trooper(and hope to bump into Capt Han Solo or Luke Skywalker-the Jedi Knight!-My Heros!) .But pretty soon you forget all that and find yourself spellbound by this spectacular display….

Excuse the bad photography in some shots.The real deal was totally out of this world,up above the clouds,closer to the heavens. *sigh*

Title Origin:Ansel Adams Quote on Photography)(Src:wildpic )

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Beginning to "Fall".

I don’t know yet if I miss blogging but I miss this blog of mine , scribbling my sometimes incoherent thoughts.
The fall semester took off today. The campus is crawling with new students, old students, local students, national students, international students—u name it they are here. Went to the book store for my usual beginning-of–the semester purchases. Boring stuff like binders, notebooks and paper. The Professor with whom I was working this summer was kind enough to buy some school supplies for me from his allotted office funds for stationary. There wasn’t anything that he wanted to buy but he had about $100 which he HAD to spend. So I got my fill of pens, highlighters, sharpies, pencils, post-its, flashcards etc etc.

There was a live band playing by the student center which is next to the book store. They were playing some rock number which I couldn’t figure out. All I remember is that it was LOUD!..but I thought the guy playing the guitar did a good job. K and R were there with me and when I asked R if it gets crazy like this in all the campuses across the country during fall he said “yea—they all become deaf”. Lol!
Anyways..after some cheap but delicious food at “the wagon” and some “deep gyan” from R the enlightened one we split ways. Now in my office looking forward to my first class of the sem in two hours. For the first time I will be taking an evening class as it’s being offered from 5 to 7:30 pm. That’s going to be interesting. Till morning I was struggling with my decision regarding which classes to take. I think I finally have it all figured out. A brief meeting with my advisor helped a lot. She is one heck of a cool lady—in fact too cool for a professor( although you dont want to mess with her). We had some of the best times during our work trips and recently when my friend, a member of our research team left, she threw a party at the local pub close to the campus. It’s a popular hangout for the Uni crowd. Ofcousre I didn’t have any state id showing my age and the bouncers didn’t allow me to get in( yea like I look under age!). Being an open plan bar I waved at my friends and my advisor came out and vouched for me. The weirdness of the moment when you are sharing a beer( I think beer tastes disgusting, except for this new one that my friend introduced me to. It’s called Hefeweizen(German I think) and if u drink it with a dash of fresh lime it can pass for -pretty good) with your professor never ceases to amaze me. She was recently made the graduate chair and she is a bit nervous about the new position but I am sure she will do fine and I wish her the best.

And..good luck to me as well for all the courses and work I will be doing this fall.
May The Force be with Me! (Oh Crap! I am scared *shivers*)

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sunrise On The Beach

I took this picture at the beach a couple of months back. The time was between 5 -5.30am. In case u are wondering about the strange hue--this is how it was that day morning. I have not done any editing to the picture. I like this one.

This is the last post from this blog. I won’t be posting anything anymore. Probably this is a temporary phase, probably not. No Idea.
Anyway I had a good time blogging, made a few friends and would like to thank all the sweet people who took the time to read my posts and leave their comments, opinions and good wishes. Really appreciate it. Will definitely continue to visit all my favourite blogs.
Hakkuna Matata ya all!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

In Love With Some Kind Of Monster.

I want out of always being afraid
In this stream of fear that I've made
Treading water full of worry
Frantic-tic-tic-tic-toc of hurry
Do I have the strength to know how I'll go?
Can I find it inside to do what I should have known?

Not my words ofcourse but could be a reflection of my state of mind.These lines are by Metallica from their song Frantic. So real and freakin passionate. Sheer poetry to may ears alright!

My finals are finally over and I had two days of vacation (technically) but in effect four days if u count sat and Sunday. Borrowed a dozen or more videos from our Uni Library and was fortunate enough to find a treasure in the heap. It’s the fairly new movie on Metallica -(Metallic-Some Kind of Monster.)

Couple of years back if somebody had told me 'you will be getting hooked to rock music', I would have given that person *u must be out of yr mind*look. But here I am , not just enjoying the music but feeling inspired by them. Listening to the few songs I have of Metallica, Alice in chain, Nirvana, Janis Joplin etc etc strikes a very passionate chord in me and if it happens to be raining or stormy outside then WOW! I feel I can bloody hell conquer the world. Its such an exhilarating, kickass experience.
Watched Some Kind of Monster twice and it was super! Got to see and appreciate the band and their music better. Was a pleasant surprise to see the softer side of the band members. When u see them performing they look so aggressive and angry, high on drugs and alcohol ,no idea what they are screaming out.On the contrary it was quite a revelation to see them make their music. Their talent is ofcourse unbelievable but more than that have u ever wondered where thier energy and passion in their music is coming from?I now believe that it is a reflection of their personal experiences, struggles, beliefs & values , their passion for music and I suppose that is what makes them unique.In other words its not all gimmicks.Ofcourse there is the drugs and the alcohol but I have a whole different theory to that which I do not care to discuss now because that would be digressing from the topic too much.

The movie, even though planned as a regular documentary,turned into a long psychological journey of healing for its band members. The band was on the verge of disintegrating- one of their long time band members Jason Newsted had left the band (or rather was asked to leave for making his own band on the side-Echobrain I think), James Hetfield (the lead singer/ guitarist) and Lars Ulrich (the drummer) were going through some suppressed anger and ego issues. Hetfield was also struggling with alcoholism (later went into rehab). Krik Hammett too, if I understood right had issues with alcoholism and the group hired a psychologist Dr Phil (not Oprah’s Dr Phil) to counsel them. Hence the documentary is a mix of group and individual therapy sessions with the members, intermingled with the making of their album St Anger, the recording sessions, playing music for the love of music, their arguments, their discussions, their agreements, the hiring of Rob Trujillo( ex-Ozzy Osbourne bassist), their personal lives and more.

It was quite an experience watching a hugely successful band like Metallica and its members with their brilliant talent and big egos trying to agree upon things and the struggles and pressures associated with balancing their professional and their personal lives.

What I understood from watching them is that most of our problems and issues in life comes down to relationships with people we are associated with. Be it rich talented musicians or be it an ordinary me..the root cause of most of our joys and distress are the relationships we develop or refrain from developing. The rich may hire professionals to counsel them and help them cope, where as ordinary me has to invent my own therapy. In life u come across instances when the people whom u love and believe like/ love you, cause u pain or vice versa. It maybe through words or actions and you are left with two options –to endure it or fix it because of the love you still feel for them or ignore each others existence and move on with your respective lives. I haven’t psychoanalyzed myself enough to present a perfect picture of how my psyche works but I like to claim that I believe more on the former option than the latter one.

Anyway this post is mostly about Metallica (lol) and I dont not wish to go off in a tangent.So bringing them back to focus…here are a few lines from their song Fade to Black.

Things are not what they not used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deadly loss this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me ,but now hes gones.

A bit tragic I know…but I am sure everybody can relate to these lines to a certain extent or must have experienced this at some point in their life.I know I have.

PS: Since the viewing of the movie the author has developed a HUGE crush on James Hetfield.The author feels there is a certain calm strength(not when he is performing but otherwise) about the dude and his voice is incredible and the way he plays the guittar- Awesome ! and last but not the least, thinks he is drop dead handsome .The author understands there is no excuse for this sort of immature display of emotions but claims helplessness!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Class In Progress.....

G, our pal from Tibet was in the middle of his class presentation where he was showing us some AWESOME pictures of the Tibetan Alpine Meadows, (area of his study)…

and I pass a note to my friend M saying.. ‘I want to quit school, move to that place over there, pitch a tent and live there for ever.’

My friend M passes a note back to me saying.. “I want to quit school, move to the moon, where you don’t need a goddamn PhD or $, find a moon man, raise moon kids and grow a moon-oat farm’.

Obviously there are people in my class more frustrated with school than I!

( I guess we are all waiting to graduate , get into jobs and when the proverbial crap hits the fan we will start appreciating school life.Isnt that how it is always?) :)

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Amusing Myself?....Could Be.

Long long long time ago ME and Shirin ,two wonderful people I got to know (and hope to meet someday) tagged me to write about "My Ideal Partner".It was so long ago probably the tag has expired but since I am still alive and have some time to kill, posting this as a tribute to The Tag albeit a slightly different version.

Random thoughts....

I don't need a man

To survive
To cook for me
To take care of me
To show me what affection is
To change the electirc bulb for me (?)
To tell me how to dream
To globe trek with me
To help me find my way(literally and metaphorically speaking)

I need one

To fall in love
To take me on bike rides
To shop with me for electronic stuff
To accompany me to the village bar (in mallu land its called “kallu shaapu”.I am soo curious to check out the scene there but lack the courage to go there alone)
To enjoy sports with( that would be cricket and football(soccer) WWE or Sumo Wrestling please!)
To tell me I am awesome (*grin*)
To have babies with.(*ahem*)
To tell me why they trip over beer so much (I mean seriously…).

They are both incomplete as well as editable lists.Down the lane possibility of either one winning and getting edited .Until then I need one as much as I dont need one.

Deeper thoughts...

My "ideal partner" would be..keeping it really simple..or maybe not.

If I find him inspirational then he is an ideal guy for me.
If I fall in love with him then he becomes my ideal mate.
If he falls in love with me as well.
Then probably u will find me on the top level of Maslow's pyramid or attained the bloody Nirvana or something. hehe...

And Janis Joplin is singing ....

Tryin’ to find a lover who’s never, never, never been born.
Standing on a hill in my mountain of dreams,
Telling myself it’s not as hard as it seems.
(Going to California-Janis Joplin vers)
I am kinda of amused now.:)Anyway I'm going to listen to the song again.Her voice simply ROCKS!

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Save Planet Earth!

You may see it simply as an appropriate title for my post or see it as a message that needs to be internalized and spread.Ask your conscience and take your pick.

First of all......................

Happy International Earth Day !
(we celebrated it today at the campus)

We have in our campus what is called the sustainability courtyard. Its an open ,breezy courtyard with lovely ,huge trees providing awesome shade , round tables and chairs made out of recycled material -looks like wood ,but is not with a couple of food joints—like Ono Pono and Govindas (yep Indian!!) serving organic ,vegetarian food .Afternoons is a nice time to be there ,when all the hippes (not the yuppies) of the campus hang out. Some with bare feet( have one in my department and we call him Big-Foot Bob) and long swaying crinkly outfits and hairs colored, not colored ,in dreds not in dreds , munching Indian food and discussing love and music(perhaps?).On second thoughts its not fair to stereotype them. They could be talking about science and technology or philosophy or politics and what not!!! Anyway in case nobody is clear, the place is supposed to represent the whole concept of sustainability and hence the name-sustainability courtyard. We have a very active environmental activist group comprising of students and professors in the University and this idea of a sustainability courtyard was conceived by them.
SO today being Earth Day they had organised an awesome celebration in the campus.Usually its at the sustainability courtyard ..but today it was moved slightly further to accomodate more people. I had completely forgotten about it so didn’t take my camera which I regret terribly(Big Loss!!).It felt like being in a hippie festival and I ABSOLUTELY loved it. Some of my classmates got their t -shirts and bags screen printed with cool logos and catch phrases. Since I had not signed up for it I couldn’t get anything personalized (Big Loss again!).And since there cannot be any festivities without music ,The Organics enhanced the hippie feel with their cool music.There was a girl playing the violin, a guy from Africa playing the African drums, a guy with the longest hair I have seen on a guy! playing the regular drums(is there a specific name for it? ) and a Japanese guy on the electric guitar. I also heard the sounds of the sitar in the background (pre-recorded ofcourse) although not quite sure if I was simply hearing it in my head. Oh yea!..with the finals right around the corner my state of paranoia has intensified.
No campus gathering is complete without the student political activists demonstrating something or passing out flyers.Today's group was wearing black ,with painted faces wich looked like the globe(for obvious reasons) distributing flyers and holding placards..demanding that Bush Step down, say no to war & yes to peace, no nuclear weapons and Save the Planet!
I also checked out a couple of alternative energy stalls ,tried out a quiz got two answers out of 10 wrong, but won a paper fan, a pen and a giant paper clip! And last but not the least—a lady came up and talked about “this guy from India” spreading the message that the “world is one family” and how inner healing is necessary to fix things external to you or something in those lines .He is visiting US and will be in town for a couple of days and she emphasized how important it is to go and meditate with him. The “guy from India” happens to be Shri Shri!
So to sum it all up—hung out with the hippies, munched on organic samosa’s , listened to the Organics , thought about a couple of sweet hippie souls I know and celebrated…all in the name of Planet Earth! I sound stoned?Naaaah..
Peace and Love

Monday, April 17, 2006

From the Heart...

Sometimes its just a beautiful song you enjoy…..and sometimes its more than hits you close to home.

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters.
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters.
(Metallica :Nothing Else Matters)
To talk about less profound things or maybe not...
Here are two pictures I took. It was getting dark so the colors of the ocean did not come out as well.
Its a beautiful ,protected bay and I live about 45 mins from here. Went there with a couple of friends. The good thing about this place is that it is State owned and open access is denied and there are timings and restrictions which are strictly followed. So its never crowded and appears more pristine and ofcourse less interference , better protected is the environment.
I was just reading that close to 4 billion(total world population 6 billion) of the world’s population inhabit land areas 60kms from the coast and that critical coastal resources ,such as mangroves and coral reefs which are among the most productive and biologically diverse ecosystems on earth are being plundered in the name of development particularly in the Asian and Pacific developing countries.
The consequence– they have suffered more than 50% of the world’s natural disasters.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Just Told Myself..

.....Life isnt too bad and it might even get better.

The Romantics has arrived and I am in love!

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Hey You....

.... would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I’m coming home.
But it was only fantasy.
The wall was too high,As you can see.
No matter how he (she)tried,
He (She)could not break free.
And the worms ate into his (her)brain.
Hey you, standing in the road
Always doing what you’re told,
Can you help me?
Hey you, out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you, don’t tell me there’s no hope at all

(State of Mind (pathetic)stolen from Pink Floyd's(Hey You!))

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Brief Pause-Resume Play.

Brief Pause..Resume Play!
That's how spring break was and now its back to business as usual.Accomplished a couple of things in my spring list.
Watched the movies(Bluffmaster was a huge disappointment except for AB jr)
Kannathil Muthamittal was wonderful as always.
Went for the short trip with my profs.Wasnt too bad .Besides work,hogged on some good food ,large helpings that too(yep look like a puffed up puffer fish now),squeezed in a movie with my friend ( V for Vendata) and bought a t-shirt and cap dyed with red dirt(oh yea!).Pretty cool except that it comes with a long list of instructions of does and donts.Hung out with friend's sisters,went shopping with them , blew up some money(*gulp*)and got the eye make over.I looked like cleopatra in the end and almost broke into the "walk like an egyptian"dance routine.
Still havent received the darn book from Amazon.Happens when u order the cheapest one available.
Treated K , jr and couple of friends to some (ahem...awesome) food...and the dessert was fantabulous!Ofcourse I cooked.
So..on the whole.. spring break was ok..except that it was more like a monsoon break.Got rained down and there was flood alerts everyday.But I was fine with it..

Back to school...
Tons of work to do -so much that its overwhelming.Projects,paper submission and more paper submission and projects(*can I just die*).As my friend V asked me yest-" besides all these stupid things(he believes formal education is a waste of time) you want to tell me if anything nice is happening at school?"and I told him-no,I lead a very stupid life.Anyways.. my friend M is visiting home(india).She will be meeting with some of our other friends in bangalore.I need a bloody magic wand right now!
This post is getting more and more depressing so to stop on a happy note..
It's my friend R's birthday.Sooo....Happy Birthday to U R!

Friday, March 31, 2006


This was a tag from Patty .
The exercise was pretty simple. Just had go to the music player of my choice-(I used the one in my comp-real player)shuffled (randomize) the list and which ever song popped up as the first choice was the answer to the question. I repeated the same procedure for all the Qs. For Qs 6, 10 and 13, I shuffled twice—because the first answers were either too ridiculous or weren’t my favo songs.(Its from a long list of about 250 songs both Indian ,and english and not all are my favourite songs).

I had FUN!:)

So here goes..

1. How does the world see you?
Another Brick in the wall-AIC
2. Will I have a happy life?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word-Blue
3. What do my friends think of me?
4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Drops of Jupiter-Train
5. How can I make myself happy?
Soldier of Love-Pearl Jam
6. What should I do with my life?
Lady- Modjo(not exactly my fav but don’t mind listening )
Second shuffle:-
6. What should I do with my life?
Alabama Song(Whiskey Bar)-The Doors
7. Will I ever have children?
Tera mera Pyar(= Mine and your’s love-It’s a Hindi Song)
8. What is some good advice for me?
Lose Yourself-Emenem
9. How will I be remembered?
I am walking away-Craig David
10.What is my signature dancing song
YMCA-Village People( not exactly my fav song)
Second shuffle
10. What is my signature dancing song?
11.What do I think my current theme song is?
Walk of Life-Dire Straits
12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Free Falling-Tom Petty
13. What song will play at my funeral?
Snehidare(= Loved ones?)It’s a tamil song, and those who have seen the movie and heard the song or understand tamil might agree that it’s a terribly romantic song and I just couldn’t imagine anyone playing this song for my funeral.So I shuffled again…and guess what..
13. What song will play at my funeral
O’Sathire- (= O’friend/partner).
Its a hindi song and it also happens to be a terribly romantic song sung by Kishore kumar the awesome one! I am SOOOOOOO Spooked!
14.What type of men/women do you like?
Love Hate Love- AIC
15. What is my day going to be like?
Buffalo Soldier-Bob Marley

I tag musicmaniac, iris and ash .
And everybody else who might find this fun.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Big People -Small Space.

What do you do when you have nothing specific and original to complain about or gossip or declare? You can shut up or you can quote others.
Obviously I don’t feel like shutting I quote lines from different sources, of different people ,with different interests , perspectives and philosophies. They all made sense to me and amused me (but still made sense) and I thought it will be fun to bring them all together within this small space.

Ecologists traditionally have sought to study pristine ecosystems to try to get at the workplace of nature without the confounding influences of human activity. But that approach is collapsing in the wake of scientist’s realization that there are no places left on Earth that don’t fall under humanity’s shadow”:-Richard Gallgher and Betsy Carpenter. From the paper Human Modified Ecosystems and Future Evolution ,published in Science 2001 It was part of our reading for one of the courses.(Just clarifying that I dont read Science to kill time.)

“Power is fortified not just by what it destroys but also by what it creates. Not just by what it takes but also by what it gives. And powerlessness is reaffirmed not just by the helplessness of those who have lost ,but also by the gratitude of those who have (or think they have) gained.”:- Arundhati Roy ,From her essay - The Greater Common Good.

“If I have to choose between gossips and gospels, my preference is for gossips. They are juicier, more alive. Gossip as aesthetically as possible, as religiously as possible, gossip something beautiful and something ecstatic. It should not be mundane and ordinary like somebody has escaped with somebody’s wife. Its third rate gossip. In the first place, no woman is anybody’s wife; every woman is a woman. Husband and wife..these are social institutions and to live in an institution you have to be mad or you will become mad.”:-OSHO, From his message titled: I Have to be Offensive to Wake You Up.

“There is more to silence than keeping one’s mouth shut.You have to shut out external noises as well as the tumult within you to realize what immense power it can generate. This is the mystic value of silence.Not being a mystic ,I can only commend the virtues of silence in worldly affairs. Besides recharging ones’s inner batteries ,it has many other uses. It can be the decisive winner in an angry dialogue.Chesterton called it the ‘unbearable repartee’; Bernard Shaw described it as ‘the most perfect expression of scorn’. As still waters run deep so does a man of silence conceal what he has within him.It is truly said: Beware of a man who does not talk and a dog who does not bark’”:-Kushwant Singh ,From his book The Very Best of Vintage Sardar : The Power of Silence.

And last but not the least…

The original strip was modified due to lack of space.This is just the conversation between calvin and hobbes.
Calvin: I hate everybody.I don’t see how anyone could ever fall in love.People are jerks
Hobbes: Sometimes they are,but look at all the colors on the trees today.
Calvin: *slightly irritated* Yeah? So What?
Hobbes: I think its more more fun to see something like this with someone than just by yourself. (Calvin and Hobbes exchange glances )
Calvin: I guess so.But I’d rather see this with a tiger than a person.
Hobbes: Well that goes without saying.
Calvin and Hobbes on Love:-The genius of Bill Watterson (Src:

Friday, March 24, 2006

I Can Almost Touch Spring Break!

Exams over….and I am ready to die and go to heaven( I know.. too much overconfidence).
So gave the last test today…another killer it was. Too much stuff to go through…but its done and hopefully done well ( I know I goofed up the last bonus Q—which I realized 30 mins after I left the class *damn*).Grabbed a quick lunch and went straight to work…(oh no.. nothing to do with dedication….everything to do with getting some important stuff done else I become minced meat at tomorrow’s meeting).
And so lets just say the Spring break officially starts tomorrow and I have a couple of things planned for a week’s break like..

1)Get Bluffmaster, watch AB jr and drool big time.I already got Kannathil Muthamittal dvd..going to watch that as well for around a dozen times.
2) Ordered a book over Romantics by Pankaj Mishra.Should be getting it tomo. Planning to read that.
3) Catch some extra extra extra sleep.I know the color of the sky at 3 in the morning and its coolbut I think I don’t need the experience for sometime now.

4)My friend M’s sisters are coming down so planning to hang out with them one day. I was told the day will be dedicated to me and one of the sisters is a lawyer/ make up artist and she is going to get creative with my eyes. So that’s free makeover (eyes) and a free lawyer at my disposal just in case I am in the mood to sue somebody.
5) Might be going on a trip for two days. (Job related with two of my profs and a friend).The profs cant stand the sight of each other so it should be a fun trip.

6) Try my hand at some decent cooking and treat K , jr and probably some friends.
7) And finally just chill..and day dream of soulmate, motrocyle trips ,rains and fascinating lands!! That should be easy.:)
8) Heck I also need to work on something for school. So might set aside about three hours of my entire break. Yea that should do.

Everything said I am also the most disorganised, lazy bum God ever shall wait and see what all is going to be accomplished. There is all probability of only the seventh one happening.

And my real player is singing…..

We don't need no education
We don’t need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers leave them kids alone
Hey! Teachers! Leave them kids alone!
(AIC ver-Another Brick in the Wall)

(Sincere gratitude to my friend V for sending the song across)

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Rain!Rain! Come Again..

It was raining crazy outside.See how dark and grey it looks ...and it was only 11 in the morning when I took this pic.
I know dark and grey sounds depressing but rain never does that to me.I love the whole drama behind it..the water,the wind ,the sound effects ,the lighting..the works! Pretty spectacular I say.But this time couldnt enjoy it as much.Still in the middle of the .... pool -swimming , and trying not to sink!

Saturday, March 11, 2006


Swimming in a shit-pool.Right in the middle of it.I would love to crib big time and I almost did to to my friend V and he said -"now that u are in the middle of the shit-pool no point in cribbing--just try and enjoy the experience".So following his holiness's advice, planning to try and "enjoy the experience" . Shall get back to the blog world cleaned,scrubbed, disinfected...with just a hint of stink!Sorry about that folks.

(Translation :- shit-pool= mid-term exams)

Thursday, March 09, 2006

The End of My(current) World.

I make big plans of visiting all these wonderful exciting places in the world like Kakkabe ,Kasargod to Tvm, Leh, Sikkim Tibet ,Mongolia ,Kenya and Amazon to name a few ... when I havent even properly explored my own neighbourhood.I am talking about my university campus!Isnt it a terrible terrible shame?
Couple of days back ,one of my friends took me to the far end of our campus where the campus grounds abruptly ends.After that its a deeply wooded area (forest ) and its seperated by a lovely fast moving stream interrupted by beautiful rocks.There is no fencing between the campus grounds and stream but its difficult to get to the stream as its about 40-50 ft down below and the slope is rather very steep. We have postponed that adventure to another day.

Anyway I was absolutely thrilled about finding this place.I LOVE forests ( after hills)and with a stream running by it was simply awesome. I dont know how to explain what I felt and would do a terrible job if I tried to unless I were a poet or something.(which I am not).
In my next trip I took my little camera along and clicked a couple of pics.I had told about this place to my friend V who has been looking forward..rather impatiently to see the pics.Last I talked to him he said something like "Put up the @#*^ ing pictures!! Hope that was polite enough for you?". Nooo!!!! was terribly impolite..but here are the pics anyway.

Nature given a High-end Manicure!!(University grounds )

Nature Wild & Free!! (AWESOME isnt it?)

(PS: The author appologises for the bad quality of the photographs and asks the forgiveness of all the wonderfully talented and creative people who may visit this blog).

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

In Reply...

To Rauf who wishes that India shines with cleaner roads and toilets and everything.
To Suresh who is not sure what progress really means.
To Shirin who hopes that whatever good happens, it percolates down to the last person.
To ME who is not very comfy with this whole India Shining thing.
To me who is sitting on the fence biting my nails, not sure about anything but hopeful and excited anyway.
And to everyone else who might be reading this…hope this makes sense in some way.

Yep I hope India shines with cleaner roads and toilets,and we figure out what progress really means and once that happens hope it percolates down to the last person so that people can be less doubtful and I can get off the fence and have a party. But in the meanwhile this is how things are..well atleast till two yrs back.
In Andhra--if I remember right--there was this govt scheme where the village and tribal folks(also known as the deprived, the marginalized, the economically backward and what not)were asked to build toilets!!(one each household).In return the govt would provide rice for the family for an entire year. I cant remb the name of the scheme and all the details (probably the toilet scheme or the rice scheme or maybe the toilet and rice scheme..dont know).I came to know of this from the villagers themselves who, by the way ,were given a new label “the beneficiaries”. I guess the real intention was improved sanitation a.k.a path to progress?
Now here is the funny part or is it funny? (Its better to have a sense of humor about this I say) .All their lives they have never ever used a toilet...some of them found it as repulsive as some of us would find the idea of not having a toilet repulsive. And now they were asked to build a toilet and get toilet trained .The incentive was- an years supply of rice. I suppose everyone would agree that hunger and poverty is such an evil thing it would drive anyone to do pretty much anything to get out of it. So some folks out of desperation built what looked like a three walled structure (one person could barely stand in) with a make shift door, some even managed to fix a toilet but no plumbing or drains or septic tanks or anything! Actually they had no idea how it worked…and no one had the time to tell them how to install it and get it working. Anyway , when I was there as part of some project ( as a lowly student intern ie), believing that they had met their part of the bargain these so called “beneficiaries” were still waiting for their bags of rice (paper works ….takes time u see ).In the meanwhile they continued with the way they were used to(back to nature) .lol! For some the three walled structure remained a dead monument ,for some of wonderful promises yet to be fulfilled , for some creative folks it worked perfectly well as a store room and some didn’t even bother ..simply because they couldn’t afford it.

A copule of pictures of the village I had a chance to stay.

Now…. try and imagine the absurdity of all this!!

So is this how India plans to shine?
Is this what progress really means?
Is this how everything good is going to percolate to the last person?
Is this how you get rid of doubts and apprehensions?
And is this why people like me are still sitting on the fence biting nails waiting for a reason to party?

Is the answer to all this blowing in the wind?

Monday, March 06, 2006

Out Of Focus.

I broke my glasses friday night. Thought I left it on the coffee table, but I accidentally stepped on it and it broke. Absolutely no idea how it made its way to the floor (just for the record I am slightly absentminded and careless and disorganized with occasional bouts of partial amnesia). Saturday morning I had to meet my friend at the campus to do some studying (the mid-terms around the corner u see) and there was no way I was going to postpone that to go shopping for a new pair of glasses. And so partially handicapped in my myopic condition I made my "out of focus" trip to the university

It was a long walk to my friend's dorms(she lives within the campus)and I kept myself occupied and amused playing a game. I decided to walk with a fixed smile and see how many people responded.I will be able to see once they come close enough..if they smile-GREAT! if not--No hard feelings.(The point to be noted is I will be able to smile at anyone without any inhibitions).It also dawned on me, if you chose, how convenient it was to be out of focus both literally and metaphorically speaking. Hmm.. just a passing thought ok.Besides it’s difficult to stay out of focus when you know it can be fixed and doesn’t help much when you have a nagging conscience. All that was my lousy attempt at shelling out “deep gyan”. U may ignore it...or rights reserved.

Anyway the study session went better than I expected. Tried to stay mentally focused if not visually focused and managed to cover some resource economics(its time the subject became extinct me thinks although give me Gandhian economics anyday) with a little bit of general news and gossip in between. Bought a new pair of glasses and now poor by 80 bucks!*sigh*Just finished seeing Gillli (vijay and trisha ( I know she is YOUR fav)). It has to be the silliest and the most ridiculous movie ever made..or maybe not. The makers of hidden dragon ,crouching tiger—please meet with .Ratnam(sar) (the maker of Gilli) for better action techniques and gravity defying stunts .Other than this it was the usual hero- heroine- the family and the bad-guy love (square?).I might sound sarcastic but I enjoyed the movie for all the above reasons. What does that make me—a lousy hypocrite with a free conscience? Karma! Karma!

Thursday, March 02, 2006

The Words The Wind Speaks?

Watched two shows on tv—both focusing India. One was a half –hour segment in Good Morning America (Diane Sawyer)and it was called India Rising…an awesome program which left me feeling proud ,with a good feeling in my heart and an extra bout of energy(ignoring the comment I made in the previous post’s comment box.).Its amazing how u feel when u get to see or hear about yr place from the outside-the awesome colors ,the variety ,the contrasts and the contradictions (like the internet café which looks like a shack from the outside ,in a slum in Delhi ,but houses a Pentium IV desktop well connected to the rest of the world).Simply amazing and incredible and sooo beautiful. I don’t mean to equate poverty with beauty …but the spirit of survival behind it is so overwhelming!. The beauty of “macountry” struck me even more once I left my apartment. Out in the street, waiting for the bus ,I sat and observed…and what I saw was pretty boring stuff. Mostly grey /white background, well dressed people most of them with coffee to go(a.k.a kickass starbucks coffee take away), except for a few who were badly dressed ,not becos they couldn’t afford it but they just wanted to be different . The only little color came either from a piece of clothing or from the rebel teenager’s hair(some painted blue, some green and some pink. I like it actually)

Back the evening saw the second program ..the Charlie Rose show ,interviewing Nandan Nilekani (Infosys CEO) and it was interesting to hear his perspective on the current big buzz-“India and China” the two fast growing economies .Its going to be a series of interviews with some of the big-wigs back home…like Ratan Tatta, Kiran Mazumdar, Shabana Azmi etc etc. Looking forward to all that .

Anyway to sum it up as one of the reporters described India “Take a bottle of champagne ,shake it well, and pop open the cork….thats India waiting to happen..and you may not want to get in the way”. That does sound cool..and I believe development is a good thing…but I just hope we don’t pay a huge price for it in the long run!

So ..thats it …me obviously feeling very patriotic…and also tripping big time on this AWESOME!! Tamil song from Kannathil Muthamittal(= A Kiss on the cheeks?).

“Vellai pookkal ulagam engum malargavey!
Vidiyum bhoomi amaithikkaga vidigavey!
Manmael manjal velichcham vizhugavey!
Malarey soambal muriththu ezhugavey!
Kuzhandhai vizhikkattumae, thaayin kadhakadhappil
Ulagam vidiyattumey, Pillayin siru mudhal sirippil…”

I didn’t know what each line meant….until I found this in some site .THE TRANSLATION!!!

“As white flowers bloom everywhere in this world,
As a war-torn world quietens for the sake of peace,
As yellow light falls on the sand,
As the flowers wake, stretching their leaves wide,
Let the children wake,In the warmth of the world,
Let the world dawn,In the laugh of the first new child,”

Would like to express my gratitude to Google for always being there for me …my reliable research assistant, my guiding link!”

Monday, February 27, 2006

A Play With Words..or Maybe Not

There are things u want ,there are things u don’t want
There are things u want
But u don’t get
There are things u don’t want
But u get (sometimes stuck with it)
There are things u want
And u can get
But these are things that u are not supposed to want.

What the Hell!

Friday, February 24, 2006

Just For the Laughs

My classmate B was sent this by her dad and we had a good laugh reading it and relating it to our project, and our big bosses the Professors(the comments in itallics)!!!

BLAMESTORMING: Sitting around in a group, discussing who was responsible for a missed deadline or a failed project (this could become an issue at our friday meetings …which never ends unless and until somebody is about to pass out…or if the Profs are desperate for ciggs )

SEAGULL MANAGER: A manager who flies in, makes a lot of noise, craps on everything, and then leaves. (uh.....we didn’t want to say much ...mostly out of respect for on of our Profs!)

ASSMOSIS: The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard. ( we know the type and sometimes feel like we should kick them in the ass)

SALMON DAY: The experience of spending an entire day swimming upstream only to get screwed and die in the end (this happens all the time with completing totally useless shit…and we haven’t reached a consensus on who should be crowned the queen for this).

CUBE FARM: An office filled with cubicles (well in food tech – [that’s the name of our office..pls don’t go by the name as we have nothing to do with food…its just happens to be an old almost dilapidated building that originally belonged to the Dept of Food Tech and was inherited by our oh-so-posh-but no-space-left-Department and now used to house us lowly graduate students working on various projects ]we have real walls----well ki! nd of). Not totally ungrateful or anything.

PRAIRIE DOGGING: When someone yells or drops something loudly in a cube farm, and people's heads pop up over the walls to see what's going on (or out of the door in our case)

MOUSE POTATO: The on-line, wired generation's answer to the couch potato.
(*stupid grin*-anyone who wishes to join the club…welcome)

STRESS PUPPY: A person who seems to thrive on being stressed out and whiney. (cant say much because we are both guilty as charged).

PERCUSSIVE MAINTENANCE: The fine art of whacking the crap out of an electronic device to get it to work again (office space....for me it's the damn comp mouse and the stapler and for B it's the stapler)

And these are a couple of pics that was sent to me by my friend K.I am sure many of us can relate to this as well…

Organisational Hazzards!

Boy!! All that crap!We are the grad assistants and no prizes for guessing where we are perched??Hope everyone reading this has a good break from the work day ...we definitely got some chuckles out of it . Now I got to go and clean off some crap!

Thursday, February 23, 2006


There is something nice and pleasant and comforting about sitting alone , under a tree, blue sky, gentle breeze et al , (having lunch) and listening to one of your favorite songs. For a short moment of time all your worries, all your fears, all your insecurities disappear. Just for a short moment …but it feels perfect! I know for sure becos I am typing this sitting under the tree ,having just enjoyed that moment.
Conclusion: Complete bliss is possible although it doesn’t last very long.
Reminded of Osho’s lines “True love is only momentary….but what a moment!”

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Deja vu!(or something like that)

There are certain days when you feel like a complete nitwit---a jackass---an idiot.Today is (once again)the day for me. See what I mean....

(Src: Friday,Oct 21,2005)

Deja vu = the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously

Au Revoir!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Paradise !...But I Wasnt There.

This has to be one of the most beautiful/charming places on this planet?I certainly think so..and as I told my friend I can live the rest of my life under that lamp-post(sounds unrealistically romantic?..well I am unrealistically romantic).He said he could do the a seperate hut ie*grin*.He didnt say that specifically but I know him better than any of u guys reading this post just take my word for it.Apparently the scenery beyond ,covered in mist and darkness is spectacular and I have a pretty reliable imagination so not disppointed at all.
The Story...

A couple of my friends had gone for a trip over the weekend.Yep without me..and they will never know the joy of my company.Such a shame. Anyway they went to this place called Kakkabae..some where close to coorg(cant remb if it comes after or before coorg).I have heard enough from my friend V who never stops bragging about the place and the number of trips he has made to that place.So this time along with another friend R(who is single and ready to mingle )and a couple of their friends made the trip (without me*sigh*.I know I am repeating myself..pls bear).They apparently had an awesome time.R took these pictures and sent them across ..for me to drool over(thank u very much..but again such a waste without me..oops!)
The Tragedy Of It....

Its a bit tragic really.Here I am desperate to go and explore these awesome places and all I am getting to do is drool at pictures and be happy with that.I honestly dont think life is treating me fairly.Anyway I dont want this to be a total crib I say..I am really happy that my friends had a good time (although without me ...*sigh*)and hopefully someday if I dont die or anything or if I dont kill myself(ME where the hell is that German Pistol) I might get to see paradise for real....and I know for sure I will be alone.I have turned into such a drama queen havent I?

(PS: all that talk about death and killing myself...just kidding.I seriously lack courage..and I also think it would be a huge loss to this world.*grin*.The weekend was terribly depressing and bits of them are still lingering sure it will pass.)
Queries concerning the photographer or the place in the photograph can be directed to me and i shall pass it on to R,although a bit "reluctantly.No offence intended to either parties.

Monday, February 20, 2006

How About A Blank Title?

Ok so I am confused at this point of time.
I am not very thrilled with whatever I am doing.
I don’t like where I am
I could compare myself to the less fortunate (such a cliché) but I don’t care to do that.
I feel (at this moment) like one of the less fortunate so there is nobody to compare to anyway.
I don’t have anything to turn to-to make me feel music,no people ,no nothing.
I don’t feel like turning to any of the above even if they were available.
I think I should be doing something else.
Like- retire to the hills and sell flowers and fruits , learn to bake and hug trees(lol…my friend N always does that)
If I feel so strongly about it then why the hell am I sticking around?
Probably becos it sounds unrealistic? But why is it so unrealistic? I am not sure at all.
Is it becos I lack the courage? Is it becos I am afraid to lose the security of the status quo.
But funnily enough and honestly speaking I don’t feel secure anyway.
I know for sure I am not living the moment, but living for the future.
And I don’t even know if I’ll have a future.
I want to take a one-way ticket (Rouf inspired) and leave.
I also don’t want to return even if I run out of money.
I know for sure I don’t sound very happy.
Maybe becos I am not.
I want to kill myself (ME where can I get that German Pistol?) that was a joke.(bad joke for sure)
I sound pathetically depressed.
Thank God for my doesnt talk back!
Everything said….I need to get back to the grind.Oh hell!