Saturday, October 29, 2005


Personal achievements so far

hmmmm…*deep contemplation*

Personal future achievements (purely selfish in nature…some foolish …some not so foolish)

1) Get my current degree(read this somewhere..BS= Bull shit , MS= More shit, PhD= Piled higher and deeper)
2) Join UNEP
3) Save the planet (a very ambitious task..but I like to aim high)
4) Trek across Mongolia(and that maybe just the beginning)
5) Have my own shack on top of a Tibetan plateau ( a good company would be awesome!)
6) Travel by train and discover India(idea rekindled after watching Gandhi…and jfr I have a crush on Charlie the clergyman)
7) Join V on the trip across the Amazon( just thinking about it gives me a high!)
8) Find the one who will hopelessly fall in love with me, and admire me and etc etc etc..(wish it were u..but....)
9) Attend a Pearl Jam rock concert(or atleast see Eddie Veddar in person and hear him sing and play the guittar.What the heck...and Eric Sweetheart Clapton too)
10) See jr happy and enjoying life
11) And finally die an awesome death(whatever that means)

Just for the a personal reminder… in the middle of achieving the above stated I hope to try and be a better person, be less selfish *sigh* and keep my pride and dignity intact.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

FUKC Greenpeace!!!

In the latest campaign news I received from Greenpeace...
It takes 90 yrs to grow a box of Kleenex and Kimberly and Clark ,the makers of Kleenex and other tissue and toilet products refuse to make them from recycled paper--instead they are cutting down trees --sometimes the rarest and oldest forests on the planet.As part of their campaign greenpeace has come up with this new acronym FUKC(Forget Using Kimberly-Clark)
A sample of the campaign t-shirt .....(Viewer Discretion Advised)*grin*

They are hosting a t-shirt competition on new a t-shirt design with the acronym 'FUKC' that needs to be accompanied somewhere on the t-shirt by the saying explicitly "Forget Using Kimberly-Clark".So if anyone inspired enough--good luck!

Friday, October 21, 2005


There are certain days when you feel like a complete nitwit---a jackass---an idiot.Today is the day for me. See what I mean....


Wednesday, October 19, 2005

I Am Wondering....

......If an individual had these two options in front which one would he or she pick . A poll might give me some idea but….
Anyway which could be the better of the two ,which would make a person feel better,eventually?

The options are…

Accept the love of someone who would treat you well and give you a lot of joy although there is going to be no future in it(short lived /temporary in nature mostly due to circumstances)


Stay away from all these short term involvements no matter how wonderful and sincere(debatable but possible I think) and pine for someone whom you seriously & wholeheartedly love ,for the rest of your life even though he doesn’t love you back.

Perhaps the two situations seem a bit weird and a bit incomprehensible and uncommon but strangely enough I have came across a situation like this and all my ,over theyears ,accumulated wisdom fails me.*sigh*.One promises joy and the other doesn’t offer much joy but there is more truth and sincerity in it. Personally I do feel strongly about one thing and that is -I don’t believe it’s humanly possible to be in love with just one person for the rest of yr life…but try telling that to someone who claims to be in love!! Which basically still leaves me with no answer.*hmmm*

On further ponderings and analysis this post might be removed and thrown to the dumps!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005


I am confused. Confused about my course plan ,the courses I should be taking, what I am really interested in. On a broader perspective I know I want to save the planet *roll my eyes* but narrow it down to something more practical and feasible I am lost. My problem is a bit like - Jill of all trades and master of none...well kind of. I like all the courses thats available and they are all new and tough to me anyway. So I could pick any but I cannot and even if I can which one do I pick. I like to be out there doing impact assessments and making policy decisions and if possible putting all those goddamn dam builders in jail .I also want to be out there finding out the rate of forest growth in the Amazonian jungles or tackling the groundwater issues in India. Its such a tough choice because I am fascinated by both. Now I am thinking if there is some way I could get the best of both worlds(a tad bit ambitious I know) and since I am here and slogging I as well make the most of it. But everytime I talk to my advisor he goes “ but it is important to take courses which has a general cohesiveness and gives you the solid foundation "..blah blah blah……Yea ..yea ..ok... ok...*exasperating sigh*
There are some class mates of mine who are soo decided on what they want to be doing. You ask them what their plans are ..and they go “Oh I wanna find out how sedimentation is causing problems to the coral reef ecosystem along the coast of wherever and how its affecting a certain kind of marine species" ---blah blah blah…and all I can do is stare at them in admiration and bewilderment!!
In the electives there is a course on --ecological anthropology..and its sooo darn interesting.(It was put there only to add to my torture *grrr*). The way I see it I need to know the complex relationship between man and envt.I need to understand how important forests are to us, how the tribals in our land live…how important forests are to them…how they do(atleast they most of our forests are in a sad pathetic state) resource management without any fancy degrees… *sigh*.
Anyway now I am wondering what are the chances of my professor reading this post..*hmmm*.Highly unlikely says my intuitive power.

Saturday, October 15, 2005


What a week!!Just finished with a quizz and a mid term exam....studied so much that i feel my head-weight has increased..*grin*.Anyway..the exams are done and I have learnt so much I feel good as well as freakin exhausted!!
Went straight to India Market(the only place where u get hindi movies) with my friend M .Gave her a crash course on hindi movies, introduced her to AB sr and jr*sigh* and made her buy frozen aloo -parattas. I got myself two DVDs-Mangal Pandey and Ijaazat. MP was such a downer.....thought it would make me feel patriotic and sentimental and blah blah blah... but all I felt was absolutely nothing...the movie just failed to evoke any emotions in me...switched it off half way .Ofcourse Aamir was looking gorgeous with his long hair and mush(well to me any guy would look awesome with long hair tied into a pony tail....oooor...maybe not all guys but most guys *grin*).At one point I had suggested that K grow his hair long ...but ofcourse as usual it was considered to be one among my many other "outlandish" suggestions.hmmm.Why cant people be a little more adventurous!!...BUGS ME!!

Just finished seeing Ijaazat..(ooold movie-N.shah,Rekha and Anuradha Patel)Soooooper!!Actually this is the third time I am watching it(twice ofcourse in India).It was an awesome surpirse to find the movie here.Its one of those offbeat movies that never ever reaches the theatre or maybe this one did clue. Plan to make a copy of the movie before I return it....ehh..nothing legal about it.. but...

...I need to get some sleep and in my ears I hear these lines..
meraa kuchh saamaan tumhaare paas padaa hain
saawan ke kuchh bheege bheege din rakhe hain
aaur mere ek khat mein lipatee raat padee hain
wo raat bujhaa do, meraa wo saamaan lautaa do..

(gulzar!! Asha!! ..Perfect!!)

Monday, October 10, 2005


I was working at the library,filing some documents and I saw these lines typed on a strip of paper ,stuck on the filing cabinet.Its been almost one month since i started working at the library and must have filed about a dozen times and TODAY I notice this paper.*hmmm* So much for my power of observation!!!

Anyway this is what was written:-

Books are masters who instruct us without rods or ferules,without words or anger,without bread or money.If you approach them ,they are not asleep;if you seek them,they do not hide;if you blundnr,they do not scold;if you are ignorant they do not laugh.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Prof E2D of Tibetan Studies Talks....

The Tibetan movie I went to yesterday was on Tibet’s Lost Child---aka The Panchem Lama (the 10th reincarnate) aka Gendun Choekyi Nyima from Tibet who disappeared at the age of 6 four days after the Dalai Lama made the declaration.The Chinese following the disappearance declared six-year old boy, Gyaltsen Norbu from China , as the 11th Panchen Lama.(a communist country making a religious decission....kinda strange..sint it?) Its been almost four years since his disappearance and there is no confirmed evidence of his being alive.(it is rumoured that he is under house arrest by the Chinese Government,in an undisclocsed location).HH the Dalai Lama believes that he is alive and wants him to be released so that the boy may receive the necessary religious training and be educated on Buddhist philosophy and way of life as he is technically going to be the religious leader of the Tibetan Buddhists. The Dalai Lama is both the spiritual as well as the political head of the country.
The Dalai Lama is considered to be the reincarnation of Avalokiteshvara( the Tibetan –Buddha of Compassion) which literally means World ward Looking Lord and the Panchem Lama is the reincarnation of Amitabha the Buddha of Infinite-Light.Both the Dalai Lama and the Panchem Lama are believed to be living Gods who are re-incarnated again and again and technically the Dalai lama selects the Panchem Lama when the old one dies and vice versa .
The movie also touched upon the non-violent struggle by the Tibetans for freedom from the Chinese, the opinions of political and religious leaders, China and Tibet experts and the massive involvement of the international student community through the Students For A Free Tibet organisation.This movie series is organised by the SFT grp of our university.
Ok…that’s all Prof E2D of Tibetan Studies has to share today...

The movie was good on the whole---more informative than entertaining---obviously!!
Missed out on the blue haired psycho’s company…probably could have got a lot more insights on Tibetan Buddhism .I bumped into him in the parking lot after the show and we were both surprised to see each other as we both thought that the other had not come.Well……happens!!

It’s the weekend and why don’t I feel happy about it???? *sigh*.Maybe because fun days have ceased to exist and I am constantly overwhelmed with all the work that needs to be taken care of. I am going through a “Life is Soooo Tough Phase”…should pass…hopefully soon…fingers crossed.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

The Blue Haired Psycho

Got to know an interesting character at the library today.He is a senior who works there and although I have seen him (well its kinda hard to miss him)never got introduced to him .Today my boss officially introduced us and asked him to show me the "closed shelves" section .W is this tall ,funny ,weird lookin guy...more like a tall kid in adult sized clothes . My boss calls him "the psycho".He dresses weird and his hair is coloured sky blue.No kidding!!He is the only guy in the campus with blue hair!!...I mean I have seen other colors but only him with can never miss him.
And so he took me for the grand tour of the closed shelves where they have these amazing collection of tibetan (buddhist), Sanskrit,Chinese and other manuscripts,old antique books ,maps and scrolls.It's awesome.The place is in one isolated corner on the 2nd floor of the library and is kinda spooky and W was making scary sound effects as we entered.It was like playing haunted house or something.*grin*.The next fun part was while going back to the office---we were in the lift and he said lets go for a ride and pressed the 4th floor instead of the 1st floor and so we went all the way up and then all the way down...*lol*.What can I say... the visit was super fun.

W is a student of tibetan studies and was so visibly excited to take me around and explain and show me some of the manuscripts.Thats when I remembered about the tibetan movie series thats going on in the campus and asked him about it.Apparently W was desperately searching for some info on the when, where etc etc.He asked me to let him know if I hear anything about it.Well I knew somebody had sent me a mail regarding the next show but just couldnt remember the date ,time and place.Later when I got home and checked ,found that the movie is scheduled for tomorrow at 6.30 at the architecture auditorium.Emailed W and pretty soon got a reply from him syaing that "you rule!!"...."cya tomorrow at the show" .Its on Tibet's Stolen Child(the pancham lama).Planning to go if time permits....and probably I might have a blue haired psycho for company.*grin*

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Stairway To Heaven

No I am not dying...its just this...
Stairway to Heaven

The picture is of a place called the Stairway to Heaven .My friend sent it from Hawaii.She had gone trekking there with some of her buddies...and its a really difficult trek--pretty scary too...atleast thats what she said.Isnt it simply awesome!?!One too..*sigh*
Which also reminded me of this awesome song by Led Zeppalin... posting a few lines which feels as though its telling me something....
There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees
And the voices of those who stand looking
Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

And it's whispered that soon, if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forest will echo with laughter
And it makes me wonder
If there's a bustle in your hedgerow
Don't be alarmed now
It's just a spring clean for the May Queen
Yes there are two paths you can go by
but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on
I dont know if everyone experiences this...but most of the songs I enjoy either reflect my state of mind or are trying to tell me something.ehhh---any shrinks(professional or self-declared) reading this---looking forward to your valuable comments.

Monday, October 03, 2005

And He Left.

My friend P left today. Feeling very sad. We are pretty cool friends….I think we both admire each other and share an awesome bond. The expression friend and a philosopher fits him so perfectly. Thats what he is to me.
Had a great weekend…pretended to be tourists and explored around , talked almost non-stop,impressed him with my cooking and even managed to squeeze in a movie. I wanted him to see the motorcycle diaries(K managed to get the dvd)…only to inspire him to travel around South America during his next trip .
Anyway he is going back to India in a couple of days and I don’t know when I’ll see him next. He took the trouble of coming here only to visit me and that makes it harder to see him go. Even K was feeling a bit sad eventhough this is the first time they met. Anyway I already miss him. May he have a great trip back home.
Its business as usual from tomorrow and I have to get over all the fun, all the sadness , all the missing and tune myself to lectures, assignments ,quizzes , work and home.*sigh*.Why cant good times last for ever?!?!

Saturday, October 01, 2005


I lost the key to my appartment along with the laundry room key.It was stolen actually...and I feel scared.All the expenses for replacing the keys is another sad factor.I feel sick ,angry ,upset and feel like throwing up.

Thsi song playing in my real player--my current obsession...although not able to enjoy it as much today.
Andhera pagal hey
Kitna ghanera hey
Chubta hey
Dasta hey
Phir bhi wo mera hey
Uski hi godi mai
Sir rakhke sona hey
Uski hi bahoon mey
Chupke se Rona hey
Ankho se kaajal ban
Behta andhera hey
(OST:Parineeta-Raat hamari tho)